I'm being really transparent, aren't I? Or else there's no slipping anything past you, darling. [He laughs, in spite of himself- a high anxious thing. He takes another sip to cover it up, but the damage is done.]

Thank you. I appreciate it. This is just... [He twists his face as he tries to figure out how best to describe it without giving away too much.] ...Familiar in the worst way, I guess.